Jayne works as an announcer for a TV
channel that shows soft porn. When Stella, her producer,
tells her about an exclusive sex club she thinks that
might be just what she needs to spice up her rocky affair
with Mick . . .
By the end
of the evening Jayne was full of suppressed excitement.
There was an added sparkle to her closing link that even
the others noticed. She ad-libbed her way through, posing
flirtatiously with her lips moistened and her eyes
gleaming seductively. Afterwards, when Bill came up to
remove the mike, she could see his arousal beneath his
cord trousers and hear the deep-throated lust in his
voice.
'God, you were one hot bitch tonight!' he murmured
huskily, as his hand caressed her behind.
'Made up for your absence yesterday, all right!'
Tony uttered similar sentiments, and Jayne revelled in
the sense of power it gave her. Up to now she had always
remained slightly aloof from all the hype, distrusting
her new-found status as a surrogate porn queen. But now
she was no longer ashamed of her rôle. When Tony's
earlier remark, that he hoped Mick appreciated her, had
struck home. If he didn't find her sexy tonight then he
was a lost cause in the bed department, she decided, and
she would be perfectly justífied in seeking her
fulfilment elsewhere.
But when she got home she was devastated to find the
flat in darkness and her lover absent. 'The bastard!' she
said aloud, striking a histrionic pose. 'I give the
performance of my life and he doesn't even see it.'
He still wasn't home when, at two-thirty, Jayne
crawled into bed. She lay awake, miserable and anxious.
True he was sometimes out this late, when he and his
mates played poker, but tonight of all nights! Somehow
she felt he should have known she wanted him. If there
was no telepathic link between them, if he couldn't sense
when she needed him and be there for her, how close could
they really be?
Jayne knew her reasoning was irrational, but she
couldn't help herself. Her mind drifted away from Mick
and back towards the secret club that Stella belonged to.
She wondered what kind of people joined such a club -
over-sexed ones, presumably. She thought of Stella,
performing sex acts with other members before the camera,
and wondered how it felt to be a real porn star. Strange,
she'd never wondered how if felt to be Anna Vandyke, or
Delycia. Perhaps that was because the films were
third-rate, the acting unconvincing. It would be
different if people acted as if they really meant it,
were really turned on by each other. What wonderful films
you could make then!
Mick crawled in about half an hour later, when Jayne
was on the verge of sleep. Her earlier desire had
dissipated and when he disturbed her she merely grunted a
little and turned over to doze. He didn't attempt to
seduce her, or even talk, but she heard him give a deep
sigh. Part of her wanted to take him in her arms, to try
and rekindle their physical passion for each other, but
her heart wasn't in it. Instead she gave herself up to a
confused sequence of erotic and fantastic dreams. The
only thing she remembered about these dreams was the name
she was known by: Miranda.
She woke halfway through the morning to find Mick had
already gone to work. It was a familiar situation, but
now it only underlined the gulf between them. After a
black coffee and croissant she picked up the phone and
dialled Stella's home number, but there was no answer.
Disappointed, she nevertheless left a message to say she
was interested in being put forward as a club member and
suggested using the name from her dream. She hoped Stella
would get the message at home. It was not something she
wanted to talk about at the studio with types like Bill
around.
Although she wouldn't mind Tony knowing. At the
thought of the blue-eyed director, Jayne's heart gave a
sudden lurch. What if he were involved in this club of
Stella's too? It was dangerous having affairs with
colleagues, which was why she had kept him at bay so far.
But if the rules of this club forbade its members to
become involved with each other outside its walls, as
Stella had hinted, that put a very different complexion
on things.
During the next few days Jayne was on tenterhooks
wondering whether her name had been put forward to the
committee. Stella had warned her not to mention it again:
she would let her know the outcome. Even so, the very
thought of joining such a club put a new spring in
Jayne's step and a sparkle in her eyes that was noticed
by the viewers. They rang and wrote in asking if she had
a new lover, begging her to wear certain clothes or
making various indecent suggestions, and seemed to have
completely forgotten that she went off air the previous
week.
'You're flavour of the month again, Jayne,' Stella
remarked dryly.
Had she guessed that her appeal was based on the
prospect of imminent sexual liberation? Jayne felt a new
and subtle tension in her life, both at the studio and at
home. Mick was behaving oddly, suspiciously, and she
wondered if he had noticed her new aura and concluded
that she had taken a lover, but the strange thing was she
no longer cared. He'd had his chance and been found
wanting. They were friendly towards each other when they
met, and she bore him no ill-will, but he no longer made
her pulse race or her heart throb. Someone else would
have to fill that void in her life now - or rather,
several others.
Then, just as Jayne was growing impatient, a call came
from Stella one afternoon.'There is a vacancy, and the
committee would like to see you,' she said straight away.
'Can you make it on Friday, after work? We could go
together.'
'Yes, that's fine. Is there anything I should do?
Wear?'
'Wear your sexiest underwear. And be prepared to take
it off.'
Jayne's hand was trembling as she replaced the
receiver. Stella had sounded so matter-of-fact, but the
prospect of appearing before this anonymous 'committee'
filled her with a combination of heady excitement,
extreme curiosity and sheer terror. She doubted whether
she would get much more information out of her producer
so she decided not to try. When they met at work that
evening nothing was said on either side. But by the time
Friday night came around in Jayne's over-active mind the
interview had taken on the awesome dimensions of an
initiation ceremony.
She was nervous and fluffed her lines a couple of
times, thinking of the trial to come. Stella seemed to
sense this and refrained from commenting as they got
ready to leave the building. In the dressing room she
glanced with approval at Jayne's black lace underwear
trimmed with red satin bows but again said nothing. Jayne
put a loose turquoise velour top on over her bra and
pulled on some stretchy black velvet leggings which she
wore with high-heeled black patent sandals. She had
agonised for some time over what to wear and settled for
what she thought of as 'classy tarty.'
'Do I look okay?' she asked Stella hesitantly.
'Great! You needn't worry, Jayne. The committee will
love you, I'm sure.'
'Will they know who I am?' she asked, uncertainly. 'I
mean, what if they watch the programme?'
'If any of them does recognise you they won't mention
it. We have a kind of unwritten rule that forbids any
reference to what we
do outside the club. And you'll be known as Miranda,
remember. Better get used to that.'
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